My Little Grey Book

have you ever felt guilty after doin somethin? felt like "oh gosh,i shudn’t have done that…" or "i shudn’t have said that.." and then the memories of all the wrong things that u did came creeping up at nite, suffocating u, makin it hard for u to get a good nite sleep. well,i have. in fact, almost always, i realised the wrongs that i’ve done immediately after doin it.. but,what’s done cannot be undone. so i tell myself that "ok,pls don’t do it again…" and i did. tell me about control.. sigh…

have u ever heard smthin bad or terrible about someone and u immediately believed wat u heard? immediately pass judgement on the "subject" without hearing or even bother to find out the other side of the story? well,i have. yes,like i’ve said. i feel bad afterwards. and i took a lil’ initiative to sniff here n there desperate to prove what i heard right. the outcome of the sniffing makes me doubt the things that i’ve heard more.i’m not pin-pointing who’s right and who’s wrong or who’s lying and who’s not.. but life had given me too many bad experiences to finally make me slightly smarter in this sense. i guess it’s ALWAYS wiser to only believe part of what u hear and not treat it like some breaking news u just heard out of CNN and spread it all ard like what u can with CNN news. n of course,there’re always bits and pieces where u can safely let urself believe in. leaves will not shake or move when there’s no wind can they?

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