My Little Grey Book

    i cried again.. yesterday.. badly.. reminiscing all the beautiful childhood memories u gave me.. i thank u for that. why did i cry? i missed u.. i have always missed the "you" before all these takes place. missed yr care,your guidance and your love. all i could recall of you is from childhood memories for i do not want to remember all the hateful events..not even for a second.i am slowly developing amnesia for all that.n i m happy for that. yes..someone scolded me for being so silly, wasting my tears..i was told that at least i have all these memories left to cherish.i was also reminded of all the orphans that have no father or mother to even remember them for.i noe i m rather fortunate in that sense.but why must it be this way? why can i only feel the love as a child? i wanna so bad to be loved by a father as a growing adult,as an adult n for all of my life.i truly miss u…..but the love is never coming back..for u are now a missing puzzle in my life.. one that will never be found again.. ever. no matter wat.
                                                                                  

                                                                       wanted so much to love u again,
                                                                                  your lost princess

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