F.A.M.I.L.Y
they say FAMILY stands for "father and mother,i love you".. but in my own context, "Father and Mother, i love you".. i have always thought the character "father, or daddy" is one who will always protect his family,providing for his family..do watever he can to make sure evrything is taken care of.. but as i grow up.. i slowly realise that this definition is too good to be true.. (at least in my family). Daddy was not the dad he used to be.. the one who loves me the most.. the one who adore me.. it pains me soooo much to even write all these past memories down.. u have to understand dad, it’s not that i m trying to b ungrateful by not loving u..(no matter wat.. i still loves u.. deeeeeep inside) by not acknowledging yr presense (although we still stay under one roof) u are merely a body walking around in the house whom i call "dad" but without meaning it.. u have single-handedly take away all my respect for u.. the moment when u start to take the wrong step..disappointing everyone in the house..the moment u run away from yr responsibilities as a "dad".. to this day, i still cannot figure out why u did all that.. since when the "evolution" process takes place..
because of all that u have done, u make me shy..ashamed of my family..(just u) ppl ard me would probably notice that i dun talk/mention abt my family.. frens who have known me for more than a year would nv even once hear me talk abt my family.. probably wat they say is true.. everyone has a skeleton in their closet.. mine is too big an embarassment n disappointment to mention.. jus so u knoe..i enjoy every bits n pieces of my life in kl.. the only place where i can forget all that had happened/is happening back in melaka.. cant wait to break free,graduate.. mayb even migrate to sumwhere where i can start a new life…
