My Little Grey Book

gosh.. right now i m feeling really bad.. utterly guilty.. sorry honey.. i shud have make things clearer by telling u that we shud go n take keys from her, in college.. really sorry to mess up all yr schedule.. really appreciate u to keep yr cool even though i annoy u so much.. really thank u for being so understanding n not pick a fight with me.. (which makes me even more guilty) i love u to bits.. thank u for all yr time n everything you’ve done for me.. really sorry for always taking my own sweet time to get ready n result in u being super-hungry.. really sorry k baby.. will try to better myself, love u always.. 

good to laugh.. =D hope this cheers everyone up..

-.-" hehe

holidays had finished.. was only off from studying for a week.. 1st few days of holidays was spent with Boredom. had to dig out some book from the cupboard in order not to rot. so i came across this book, was a fren’s (chee chun, remember ur book still with me?) well, i’ve read this book a couple of times, it’s one abt all the infamous murders/unsolveable murder cases,mostly in the UK..was pretty interesting to learn how these people murder others for money, or out of lust n perversion.. some just got a thrilling sensation looking at the blood of their victims oozes out n climax by watching it.. (yeap..even naked women can’t beat that kinda ecstacy,to them i mean) some kidnapped n sexually abused children,boys but most kill for money.. some nites i would dream abt wat i read.. haha.. too much of these stories apparently dun do me much good.

i went to penang on tues-thurs. much of my time there was spent consuming food. has been eating n eating n eating.. from one place to another.. jus manage to visit Kek Lok Si Temple for a while. reached there at abt 5.20 n it closes at 5.30pm.. gain weight after the trip.. hmm.. but i guess everyone does.. sleep n eat during holidays -a norm for students this generation.. =P

oh yeah, had an outing with some fren the other day, Fri nite to b exact.. manage to meet up wit some of ‘em before my holidays end. Kahjoon came to fetch me after fetching Yiding. then we went to fetch andrew,shannon n melissa. we head to Senyum for a few game of pool.. my oh my.. lady luck was on my side that nite.. played fairly well.. =D after that, went to Kota mamak to meet both Kristina n Christina.. Eehoong came to say hi though.. so we talked n talked.. catching up on each others’ lives..

so came back KL on sunday..which was yesterday, went for a buffet steamboat dinner with my housemates.. class started, i only have classes on mon,wed n thurs.. this is a short sem,which means i will only study for 2 mths n am taking only 2 subject. having holidays from nov-dec. =) looking forward to a new semester.. =)

oh abt my result, got a C for MOT,B for BIS (really really regret wasted the weekend not studying for it) an A for B.Stats.. (i dun have a chance to screw the lecturer..lol.. well, i got my A hasn’t i?) results are still pending for B.Law n B.Comm.. Ms Sarojini is not well i heard, anyway, am crossing my fingers..hoping it will turn out to b As..

right now.. i am sooo full… jus came back from mamak.. for supper. today i woke up at ard 12.30.. bathed,get ready, then went to sungai wang. had McD for lunch in Times Square as car was parked there. so went shopping d whole day till abt 8+.. bought one top,2 shorts, 1 t-shirt,1 undie n 1 thong.. ;P top’s kinda sexy,zipped front,sleeveless with a hood-like thing at d back (remember the jacket worn by nicole of d pussy cat doll? lol) jus tat mine is sleeveless n zipped from top to tummy.got attracted to get it as the design says smth of sexy chic on bike..so,me having a liking for vehicles n all..it’s a must have item..haha..as for shorts, 1 from body glove n 1 denim shorts from some shop..t-shirt (rm10) some alien design.. kinda cool.. pink lacy undie n red-white thong.. that’s all.. today’s shopping was really budget. got all these for abt rm110..

*happy* …  *wink* … *smile*

have you ever look at other ppl n tell urself "i wish i am like her".. or rather "i wish i AM her.." well, i have.. many many times.. it’s jus not enough jus knowing "hey.. my life is not bad.." still.. "but mayb it will better being her/him". are human’s needs insatiable? do we not know how to appreciate..? n treasure what we have? is it true that we must b in other ppl’s shoe just to realise that it doesn’t fit? do we have to lose what we have before learning to treasure all that we have now? (after all that we have lost?) some times it is also because of all these jealousy n all the unquenchable thirst of envy that drive us to behave differently.. in order to be "them" or at least to jus feel wat it’s like to b "them"..but wat’s the point? at the end of the day..we are still who we are from the day we were born.. it’s impossible to trade place n all (freaky friday is jus a movie..) so next time, before u get all jealous of others, think of all that u have with u.. family,frens,pets, or at least u r not living in a war-thorn country where ppl there cant even get a peaceful nite sleep.. remember that there are millions more others out there who are not so much as fortunate as u..

well.. well… right now is right in the middle of final exams period.. i have finished 3 papers out of 5.. now left 2 more,which is on tuesday n wednesday respectively.. my exam started on wed, then gone through 2 papers on fri itself.. stats n law.. was very happy with that 2 papers.. shud b able to do well.. (still keeping my fingers cross though) next is Business Info System. on tuesday, n i have yet to start studying for it.. life after friday has been a bit more relax compared to thurs. n today is sat…n i really need to get up,smell the coffee n study! i’ll have roughly abt 1 week holidays after the last paper..not much mood to do anything.. to go anywhere.. actually wanted to go n watch paris hilton.. but after thinking.. i will surely b forbided from entering as it will b held in Zouk.. i’m 18+ (19 this yr) -still underage- sigh…

life.. life as a student is fun,bored,hectic,relaxing,honeymoon…u name it.. we experience it all.. the Q is whether u choose to live that life as a bed of roses or a bed full of thorns.. how u look at it is most important..because at the end of the day, it is us,ourselves who feel all the satisfaction/dissatisfaction out of it..make full use of it so that there will b no regret when the studying phase of life is gone n never coming back..at least that’s wat i think n am doing..

paris will b in town..the loft,zoukclub kl..promoting her latest album "paris".. 18th aug, 9 pm.. hmmmmmm… will think abt tat..

anyone going?

http://www.clubbing9.com.my/events.html

they say FAMILY stands for "father and mother,i love you".. but in my own context, "Father and Mother, i love you".. i have always thought the character "father, or daddy" is one who will always protect his family,providing for his family..do watever he can to make sure evrything is taken care of.. but as i grow up.. i slowly realise that this definition is too good to be true.. (at least in my family). Daddy was not the dad he used to be.. the one who loves me the most.. the one who adore me.. it pains me soooo much to even write all these past memories down.. u have to understand dad, it’s not that i m trying to b ungrateful by not loving u..(no matter wat.. i still loves u.. deeeeeep inside) by not acknowledging yr presense (although we still stay under one roof) u are merely a body walking around in the house whom i call "dad" but without meaning it.. u have single-handedly take away all my respect for u.. the moment when u start to take the wrong step..disappointing everyone in the house..the moment u run away from yr responsibilities as a "dad".. to this day, i still cannot figure out why u did all that.. since when the "evolution" process takes place..

because of all that u have done, u make me shy..ashamed of my family..(just u) ppl ard me would probably notice that i dun talk/mention abt my family.. frens who have known me for more than a year would nv even once hear me talk abt my family.. probably wat they say is true.. everyone has a skeleton in their closet.. mine is too big an embarassment n disappointment to mention.. jus so u knoe..i enjoy every bits n pieces of my life in kl.. the only place where i can forget all that had happened/is happening back in melaka.. cant wait to break free,graduate.. mayb even migrate to sumwhere where i can start a new life…

stupid b.stats lecturer!! hate him to d max.. suppose to pen this feeling down that day after i went to c him.. but got postpone.. haha.. so venting out my angers now.. =P stupid lecturer!!! he only give me 9 marks out of 20 for my test 1… argh!!! i dun belif that i only get 9 marks!! 9 man.. 9!!!! out of 20!!! i can do the test.. i knew i cant answer all d Q but i m very sure i can get more than that.. so after seeing d result at the notice board, went to look for him.. he wasn’t in d office.. so i went to look for him again the next day.. askin him politely whether can i c my test paper.. telling him that i need to know where i screw up .. n that i got full mark for midterm..guess wat he say? "enuff alrdy la.. now u need to concentrate on finals.. " i asked him on how to score in essay-type of Q.. n guess wat he said? "u need to write to my level.. we,lecturers of business sch are very gd in essay writing.. " (%^%&$^@#%!@$) i m speechless.. so keep saying "thank u sir.." in hope of getting away from his lecture.. n he told me "dun always think of getting A.. study for knowledge.. only think of getting A if u r very good" (@$@$#@$@!!!) damn!!

but honestly speaking.. to get an A for this sub. is no prob. n if….. touch-wood la.. if i dun get A.. i’m gonna march straight into his face n ask for my test paper… stupid lecturer.. he has been pissing me off since day one of him teaching me.. always lookin down on business students.. always making discriminating remarks on business students.. wat a lecturer.. i tot they are suppose to teach students / help students regardless whether the student is good/bad in studies.. n he always tok nonsense.. waste our time in class.. from business statistics.. he can drift to talk abt the new Transformers figure he bought which cost him ard RM100+.. what the heck??

sigh….

my pirate name: Captain Mary Rackham..

Even though there’s no legal rank on a pirate ship, everyone recognizes you’re the one in charge. You have the good fortune of having a good name, since Rackham (pronounced RACKem, not rack-ham) is one of the coolest sounding surnames for a pirate. Arr!

wat’s yours?
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