pls read this..i’m sincere
frenster blog.. not such a bad idea after all.. at least i have a place to pour out my thoughts n feelings whenever i feel there’s noone tat i can talk to. at least i duno how to consult ppl.. duno where to start about everything.. duno wat suppose to say n what to keep to myself.. somethings are meant to b kept secret till the end of time..i jus realised smth.. smth very true n not right.. i realise i like to tell ppl every single details about my general life.. 2 things i dun discuss.. 1st..my family.. 2nd.. my love life.. any other category.. made public by me..myself..After giving it a thought,n after analysing every single event in my life, i find that i’m heading towards the wrong way. my journey of life is taking a wrong turn..turning towards a self-centred n horrible creature..succumbs to a thing called selfishness..i realise that my needs are insatiable.. i m to find everythin not right.. everything not fulfilling.. everything not fine.. not good enough.. i can really relate to the song "if i were u" by Hoobastank..jus that i m not the character singing it.. but rather the negative character in it. "i seem to find it dark everything that is bright, i nv open my mouth unless it’s to complain.." i guess i jus dunno how to thank the star for wat i have today.. but thank goodness it’s still not too late to make a BIG u-turn now..i feel better..thank u for making me realise this..i’m sorry for all that happened n i hope i won’t cause anymore damage to anyone.. forgive me whoever u are.. if i had hurt u in anyway,be it intentionally or not.. sincerely..I’M SORRY
June 11th, 2006 at 6:24 pm
why do i do this? it’s because i believe in wat i see… like i told u.. i knew wat was happening from the 1st day things got sour. it’s not like ANYONE influence or tok me into making all this up or make me into despising u .. well.. since everything u wrote u portrayed the “kiddy” side of me, wat more can i say? i m even more disappointed at u.. like i said far earlier.. that post wasn’t meant at shooting anyone.. READ PROPERLY.. I SAID I WASN”T ANGRY AT ANYONE.. JUS WONDERING..i did not write wat i wrote to shoot u.. pls.. do not argue with points like we r kiddy etc jus because u r much older than us.. i noe u r good with words.. english.. anyway the event is over now.. we dun need to c each other anymore.. but jus one thing.. take care of my fren,shirlene.. -n-