My Little Grey Book

the time now is 1.52 n i m still awake.. not sleepy though.. tmrw have to wake up early to work.. wtf? monday comes again.. in fact it is alrdy monday.. seriously.. the weekend tat i jus survived thru was a disaster.. thunderstorms,rains,disasters came one after another.. but am glad tat it’s all over now.. was checking out some frens’ photos in frenster before this.. really feel pissed n uneasy.. not for myself.. but for somebody important in my life. feel unfair n angry for him.. they all used to be his frens.. but y are they treating him like now? y dun they take him as a fren anymore? again.. i might b wrong.. mayb i m jus being sensitive.. but u b the judge..let’s say.. u have a group of frens tat u always hangout with.. all used to b okay.. then things slowly drift to the wrong direction.. ties dun seem tat close anymore.. tat’s still beside the point.. just imagine.. u keep calling ur fren up.. asking them to hangout to catch up on old times.. n did they allow the catching up? NO! it’s all because of him who call them… if it turn out to b another person,i’m f**cking sure they will as hell turn up! no matter how late.. no matter how busy they are… i jus feel tat it’s not fair.. i mean like if u have something against tat person,it’s just not fair to just ignore him without giving him chance to noe his mistake n redeem for it.it’s like out of the blues.. "my frens are no longer my frens anymore.. close,good frens suddenly turned into hi-hi bye-bye frens.." wf? okay.. mayb there’s personal conflict.. mayb they are jealous of him.. mayb they dun like the way he talks..mayb there envy him.. or mayb they jus plain dun like his ass.. but why were they such good frens once? why? one BIG QUESTION MARK… ntg much.. just felt unfair for one whom i care

okay..enuff abt that.. i m  just plain bored.. ppl around me is making me pissed.. wat the heck.. okay i noe tat we cant get wat we want all the time.. but this is too much for me to handle.. but will pull through it no matter wat.. hope to be wiser at the end of the day…. i MUST b wiser.. so as to not make the same mistake again…

hmmmm….. kinda excited to think tat college gonna start soon in april tat is.. am gonna make good use of the education tat i m getting n not gonna screw it up again.. but dun worry folks.. i m  still ME.. still will fool around.. still will have fun.. n still ..will maintain the grades.. this is a promise i make to myself.. one more thing… i get very very very annoyed by ppl in the ktm station… argh!! 1st.. officers there are not frenly.. rude to be exact! really pissed me off.. 2nd.. y do malaysians tend to hug the poles in the train? u noe… the poles in the train.. for ppl to hang on to it when the train is moving.. so tat ppl who is standing wont fall or b unstable… why are malaysians soooo dumb as to hug the entire poles to themselves???? dun they get it? other ppl need to just grab the pole for support!!! stupid ppl… really makes me angry.. again.. these only refers to a tiny bunch of insensitive humans.. i m not drawing a general picture.. jus merely voicing out my dissatisfaction..

i guess tat’s all… gotta sleep now..good nite.. will update more about my life tmrw perhaps.. but wat the heck.. my life ain’t interesting.. jus ordinary..

"i’m an ordinary girl in an extraordinary world"       

**k4r3n**